fall on your knees

I recently came across the autobiography of Eric Clapton.  In it he describes his journey in and out of treatment centers for his addictions.  Apparently the world of Rock and Roll brought not only fame and fortune but also addictions of alcohol and drugs.  He describes his experience in the last treatment center a few days before he was released.  As the day approached to leave he realized that nothing had changed, he was was filled with thoughts of drinking and drugging and self-destruction.  

He was overcome with panic and fear.  His legs gave away and he fell upon his knees.

He did not know what he was saying or who he was saying it to, but it was the first time he could remember that he prayed.  It was at that moment that something changed.  There was a difference in him.  He went on to kick the addiction.

He writes this in thinking about that experience.  He said, "you are never more a mature adult than when you fall upon your knees and bend humbly to something greater than yourself."

We have two options in life: we can genuflect to something greater than our self or we can slowly self-destruct. 

It is on our knees that we are truly awaken to love as St. John reminds us, "not that we have loved God but that he has loved us." 

So fall on knees and be awaken to love that cries from above to be your strength. 

"Happy are those who acclaim such a king, who walk, O' Lord, in the light of your face.  Who find their joy every day in your name.  Who makes your justice the source of their bliss.  You, Lord, are the Glory of their strength".  (PSalm 89)